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Friday, January 29, 2010
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Lives
Part 2
Have you ever had your friend come and beg you to save his dream for him ?
Something he has poured blood sweat and every other conceivable thing into ... and now he's facing a day where everything he has worked for is being yanked away. He is sure that the matter is beyond help, but he still asks because he will not leave any stone unturned. I have heard the words 'love', 'optimism' and 'determination'. I fucking got a glimpse of their meaning today.
All the poetry in the world will not come close to what I experienced when he asked me that question.
I have learnt more from the few hours that I've spent with this man than in all the rest of my life. For such a thing to have happened to him ... all i can say is ... life is a nasty whore with a thirst for irony.
He is a blessed soul. May he find the peace of mind , the courage and strength to carry on with his life.
Love you lots man. You rock
Have you ever had your friend come and beg you to save his dream for him ?
Something he has poured blood sweat and every other conceivable thing into ... and now he's facing a day where everything he has worked for is being yanked away. He is sure that the matter is beyond help, but he still asks because he will not leave any stone unturned. I have heard the words 'love', 'optimism' and 'determination'. I fucking got a glimpse of their meaning today.
All the poetry in the world will not come close to what I experienced when he asked me that question.
I have learnt more from the few hours that I've spent with this man than in all the rest of my life. For such a thing to have happened to him ... all i can say is ... life is a nasty whore with a thirst for irony.
He is a blessed soul. May he find the peace of mind , the courage and strength to carry on with his life.
Love you lots man. You rock
Lives
I have been meaning to write about some things for a while now. I hope i can do justice to the thoughts and emotions of people involved.
Part -1
The online relationships that I dedicated my blog to have ceased to exist. Broken due to ... unexplainable reasons. It hurt to do what I did, but it had to be done. Investing emotionally in someone you haven't seen ... someone you don't know for sure exists ... is not a wise thing to do. Given the state of mind I was in, when such relationships began, I can probably explain why they kicked off and thrived.
It was mutually beneficial, being each others' confidantes and sharing each others sorrows. Who knew, one could have a social life without leaving their room ? I had my an online- aunt, niece and brother all of whom I chose ( yeah, relatives whom i chose ).
The mood swings that conversations with those people caused were amazing. In fact, I'm deeply indebted to my aunt for all the love and care she gave me, nothing I have experienced or can experience will ever replace it.
The niece was a mood lifter. One 'chachu' from her and I knew my was made right there.
The bro was somebody whom I could bore with unnecessary advice and with whom I could share thoughts and opinions unlike with my real life - phased out one.
All these relationships lasted for about the same length of time. Each grew strong at different points of time tho. Why or how they came to and end ... well ... some things are better left unsaid.
I can't say I've found my closure from them, but they have broadened the horizons of my mind and heart.
I regret having hurt any of them at any point of time for whatever reason. That said, I wish all of them happy and fulfilling lives ahead. There's more to be said ... but ... I choose to stop now and forever hold my peace.
Part -1
The online relationships that I dedicated my blog to have ceased to exist. Broken due to ... unexplainable reasons. It hurt to do what I did, but it had to be done. Investing emotionally in someone you haven't seen ... someone you don't know for sure exists ... is not a wise thing to do. Given the state of mind I was in, when such relationships began, I can probably explain why they kicked off and thrived.
It was mutually beneficial, being each others' confidantes and sharing each others sorrows. Who knew, one could have a social life without leaving their room ? I had my an online- aunt, niece and brother all of whom I chose ( yeah, relatives whom i chose ).
The mood swings that conversations with those people caused were amazing. In fact, I'm deeply indebted to my aunt for all the love and care she gave me, nothing I have experienced or can experience will ever replace it.
The niece was a mood lifter. One 'chachu' from her and I knew my was made right there.
The bro was somebody whom I could bore with unnecessary advice and with whom I could share thoughts and opinions unlike with my real life - phased out one.
All these relationships lasted for about the same length of time. Each grew strong at different points of time tho. Why or how they came to and end ... well ... some things are better left unsaid.
I can't say I've found my closure from them, but they have broadened the horizons of my mind and heart.
I regret having hurt any of them at any point of time for whatever reason. That said, I wish all of them happy and fulfilling lives ahead. There's more to be said ... but ... I choose to stop now and forever hold my peace.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Hmmm
I agree that its been a long time and that I have made a big fool of myself by failing to live up to the 7 posts a week target.
Needless to say, im going to work without any target number of posts from now on.
Well, this is typical of me. I let things get the better of me and then just ... stop . Enough about me for now.
Over the last few weeks I have realized many things and forgotten them like I always do.
Here are some that I can remember right now.
1. The main highlight of my life is learning the same lessons over and over again by making the same mistakes.
2. Facts and logic aren't sufficient for me to get convinced.
3. God's debris is a weird book to read
4. To get out of a rut, one has to do more just 'wanting' to get out, therefore making the chances of me getting out of a rut all by myself successfully, close to impossible
5. Never help people who dont want to be helped
6. Online relationships are dicey and ...one shouldnt invest emotionally in them.
7. If you want to help people with no motives of your own, be prepared to be screwed over and over and over and over ....
8. A phenomenal amount of time is wasted in trying to figure things out. Sometimes its best to blindly follow the crowd.
9. There is no feeling that can replace speaking to an old and forgotten friend and discovering that the bond still exists.
10. The internet is a place to meet weird people, anyone who hasn't has missed out on their full internet experience.
I dont really want to stop ... but ... I dont want to become 'Prak' :). Douglas Adams went over the top with that one.
For those who are interested, here's what wikipedia has to say about prak
"Prak was a witness in a trial on Argabuthon where the Dwellers in the Forest were suing the Princes of the Plains and the Tribesmen of the Cold Hillsides. Prak was a messenger for Dwellers in the Forest sent to the other two parties to ask "the reason for this intolerable behaviour." He would always walk away thinking about how well-thought out the reason was, but he would always forget what it was by the time he got back. The white robots of Krikkit broke into the court room to steal the Argabuthon Sceptre of Justice, as it was part of the Wikkit Gate Key. In so doing they may have jogged a surgeon's arm, while the surgeon was injecting Prak with truth serum, resulting in too high a dose. When the trial resumed, Prak was instructed to tell "the Truth, the Whole Truth, and Nothing but the Truth," which, due to the overdose, he did. People at the scene had to flee or risk insanity as Prak told every single bit of the entire truth of the entire universe and all of its history, much of which they found ghastly. Prak recalled that many of the weird bits involved frogs or Arthur Dent. As a result, when Arthur Dent came to visit him in search of the truth, he nearly died laughing. He never did write down anything he discovered while telling the truth, first because he could not find a pencil and then because he could not be bothered. He has therefore forgotten almost all of it, but did recall the address of God's Last Message to His Creation, which he gave to Arthur when the laughter subsided. He died afterwards, not having recovered from his laughing fit. "
Needless to say, im going to work without any target number of posts from now on.
Well, this is typical of me. I let things get the better of me and then just ... stop . Enough about me for now.
Over the last few weeks I have realized many things and forgotten them like I always do.
Here are some that I can remember right now.
1. The main highlight of my life is learning the same lessons over and over again by making the same mistakes.
2. Facts and logic aren't sufficient for me to get convinced.
3. God's debris is a weird book to read
4. To get out of a rut, one has to do more just 'wanting' to get out, therefore making the chances of me getting out of a rut all by myself successfully, close to impossible
5. Never help people who dont want to be helped
6. Online relationships are dicey and ...one shouldnt invest emotionally in them.
7. If you want to help people with no motives of your own, be prepared to be screwed over and over and over and over ....
8. A phenomenal amount of time is wasted in trying to figure things out. Sometimes its best to blindly follow the crowd.
9. There is no feeling that can replace speaking to an old and forgotten friend and discovering that the bond still exists.
10. The internet is a place to meet weird people, anyone who hasn't has missed out on their full internet experience.
I dont really want to stop ... but ... I dont want to become 'Prak' :). Douglas Adams went over the top with that one.
For those who are interested, here's what wikipedia has to say about prak
"Prak was a witness in a trial on Argabuthon where the Dwellers in the Forest were suing the Princes of the Plains and the Tribesmen of the Cold Hillsides. Prak was a messenger for Dwellers in the Forest sent to the other two parties to ask "the reason for this intolerable behaviour." He would always walk away thinking about how well-thought out the reason was, but he would always forget what it was by the time he got back. The white robots of Krikkit broke into the court room to steal the Argabuthon Sceptre of Justice, as it was part of the Wikkit Gate Key. In so doing they may have jogged a surgeon's arm, while the surgeon was injecting Prak with truth serum, resulting in too high a dose. When the trial resumed, Prak was instructed to tell "the Truth, the Whole Truth, and Nothing but the Truth," which, due to the overdose, he did. People at the scene had to flee or risk insanity as Prak told every single bit of the entire truth of the entire universe and all of its history, much of which they found ghastly. Prak recalled that many of the weird bits involved frogs or Arthur Dent. As a result, when Arthur Dent came to visit him in search of the truth, he nearly died laughing. He never did write down anything he discovered while telling the truth, first because he could not find a pencil and then because he could not be bothered. He has therefore forgotten almost all of it, but did recall the address of God's Last Message to His Creation, which he gave to Arthur when the laughter subsided. He died afterwards, not having recovered from his laughing fit. "
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