Thursday, August 12, 2010

Two adages, that i have lived through

रहीमँ तेरे संसार में भाँति भाँति के लोग, कुछ (pardon the frech) मदारचोढ़ तो कुछ बहुते मदारचोढ़


समय से पहले , भाग्या से ज़्यादा किसी को कुछ भी नहीं मिलता है.

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Setting the record straight

I am no longer 'in a relationship'. I would even go so far as to say, there never was a relationship. I was just blue-eyed about the matter from the word go. Serves me right. People had warned me not to go after her. In my heart of hearts I didnt want to believe them. My my, and how wrong I was.
She just went after what she wanted and got it. At some point, I kept deluding myself with the idea that 'i can withstand anything, and true love will change everything'. I only realized I am not that strong. It is hard to give true love when you have expectations. I had expectations, and any love built on expectations is bound to fail. Therefore, mine did. I am a better man now, having realized the extent and limitations of my emotions.
New relationships beckon, the heart grows fond of people easily, But I am cautious now. Experience has watered the seeds of the plant which will someday, hopefully, bear the fruit of wisdom.
I'm experiencing a new calm. I can now see myself change, and what is more, almost consciously choose how to change.
One thing is for sure though. I have not stopped believing in love. In fact, I can say I have understood its preciousness.
A wise person once told me 'put yourself out there, you will never live until you learn to let go'. I am now slowly letting go.